A little about me:

I was born February 10th, 1995 to two wonderful human beings. I grew up listening to show tunes and lots of jazz, swing, beatles, beach boys music. I have two half sisters, both are in their mid twenties and are fabulous.  My mom owned a day care at home- but just recently retired, she now has her own business! I sing, act, and (try to) dance. My parents met in Musical Theatre (sweet charity), and have been in numerous plays and musicals. I’ve been in plenty of shows, here are just some :), 25th Annual Putnam County Spelling Bee, Beauty and the Beast, Legally Blonde and Les MIs. Singing is my favorite. I live in a quaint little town. I have amazing friends. I love to bake, and cook, and make up new recipes. 

In middle school, a boy called me fat. I tried throwing up and cutting, didn’t work. Over the years tried some more of it, but not at constant. Sophomore year it got very bad, i actually was cutting and throwing up regularly. I was self diagnosed  Bulimic, a doctor didn’t need to tell me that. People would have never known, but i got really scared that i was doing it for so long, and i saw how serious it was, that i finally told my school counselor.  A lot of things came up, cutting, bulimia, not being good enough, skinny friends, pressure, stress, family„ etc. But the biggest problem i talked about was this. I don’t think I’ll kill myself now, because i have so much i want to do in my life, get married and have kids, have a successful job and be happy, but if I don’t get those things, I really am afraid that I will kill myself.” . She called my parents, and I was having a panic attack… I got a shrink, didn’t like it, stopped going. I healed myself. Well, I’m healing myself. Its a constant battle, but I’m stronger than my demons. I want to lose weight the healthy way, I want to get fit, I want to shine. 

Update: In november 2012 I relapsed in my eating disorder, it was about ten thousand times worse than the first time. I recovered in December, and have been purge free since.

Update: I’m feelin’ the best i have since last August!!!  (April 2013)

If you want to get to know me more, go to the search bar at the top of my blog and type in “personal” :) Have a lovely day you beauties!

*DISCLAIMER* I dont go around yelling, I AM SUFFERING FROM AN ED all over the town, I am sharing my story with you because I want you to know what has shaped me as a human being and that i am here to listen if you need someone who might get a little where you are coming from. 

I am NOT a nutritionist or a Psychiatrist.